I said stop to be in progress in psychiatry for mentally disturbance, and at 21.04.19, I chose, that my life needed a 360 degrees turn. I chose to sell everything I owned, to travel into the world finding myself, foothold that woman I saw in the mirror every day, who was hiding inside my body. I needed to be my own miracle, before I could fight for animal rights.
I stopped looking for a person to mirror in, to find myself through that person. All I needed, I already had, because its inside myself. I needed to take the biggest responsibility to be happy. This was my way out. A wish to end my life.
Through the process 21.04.19 until 30.12.19. was the wildest cleansing of my life. I had quitted my job, apartment, and I had 6 plastic boxes left, containing my home from an 58 sq.m. apartment.
I found out, that my stuff contained so much pain, and because I let it all go, I released an energy, that I had never felt before. I became my own miracle and happy, because I got room to love myself for who I am and has been, and how my body looks. This is thanks to 21.04.19, where I chose myself FIRST before others, because I am the most important in my life.